The silk tree had started shedding its leaves. Shortly blood red
flowers will appear and all kind of birds will be flocking again on
the tree. I have not been to my usual evening haunt at Vadakkunaathan for
sometime now. I had missed the heady fragrance of the Indian Devil tree in
bloom in October-November. I am in time to see the blooming of the Silk
tree.
It was a December evening. Mandalam season was just
over and there was the usual hiatus before the Makara vilakku pilgrim rush
started. Not many vehicles carrying pilgrims were parked in the temple compound.. A mild evening
sun, well on its way on its northern journey from the tropic of Capricorn was hovering over the 'Naduvilal'. The sun starts its northern journey immediately after the winter solstice as per the solar calender. For us though , the
'uttaraayana' will start only on 'Makara sankrathi’ because we follow the
sidereal calender.
My usual place on the parapet was awash in the light of the
setting sun. It will be another half-hour before the lengthening shadows reach
it. There was a cool nip in the air making the sunlight bearable and even
pleasant. For the weather experts, the wind would have qualified as a light
breeze measuring not more than Force 3 on the Beaufort scale. Ideal settings
for one to 'stand and stare' and perhaps ruminate. And absorb some sunlight vitamin.
The time of the year, the quiet surroundings and the congenial
clime all seemed to provide an ideal temporal and spatial setting for a
retrospect of the year about to go by. As each year passes, one is reminded of the depleting stock of time left at ones
disposal. News of departing friends and colleagues reach you more often than
news of their conquests and adventures. Children seems to fly away from you
impelled by some unseen, compelling centrifugal force of circumstances. One realises
increasingly the profound worthlessness of some of the things and values once held dear and how insignificant and
meaningless those are in the grand scheme of nature. One start longing for
reducing the accumulated clutter, simplifying ones life to the maximum and be in readiness to eventually sink in the vortex of time without making much of a ripple.
Such thoughts may sound maudlin or melancholic or
pessimistic. But somehow, in some way ,the idea of simplifying my life
fascinates me immensely although I am not driven by any morbid thoughts of
impending departure. It is just that I realize more and more and cannot help
admitting to myself that quite a few of the things and activities in which I found
pleasure and used to spend a lot of my time were futile , inane, pointless.
Face book for example. My routine somehow got shaped without my knowing it into a rigmarole of getting up-FB with bed coffee- toilet-more FB.. The ‘timeline’ on your profile enables
you to go back and go through your earlier comments and statuses. I often wonder
whether it was indeed me who wrote some of those comments and for what
purpose. Would anyone be really impressed by such inane comments and forced
humour? Was it all worthwhile? Granted one came across a few guys with whom one could be friends with in real life too but one had to put up with a lot of people who would at best remain
mere acquaintances and a few, to avoid whom one would be prepared to take a very wide detour. Going back to some of the statuses and comments on the timeline did not even give a
feeling of ‘de javu’.
I feared I was becoming an FB addict.. So much so I even undertook some of the tests available
in the internet to measure the intensity of one's FB addiction. The results were reassuring. I had not progressed to the level of
chronic addiction and there is still some hope left. I decided to test my
ability to stay away from FB for a whole week. I succeeded in limiting my
comments to just two only during the whole of the last week of the year. That gave me confidence and the needed impetus for my New Year’s resolution.
No more FB. I shall respond only to the notifications
on my email which I hope will also subside within a couple of months. I shall
go back to my previous love-reading..Having decided on what to do in 2014, I proceeded to devise some concrete steps to ensure that I
keep the resolutions.
1. Remove Face book from the Favourites bar.
2. Make a list of books you want to read or re-read in 2014
3 Do not touch the laptop before 8 am or after 4 pm and never on a Sunday.
The first and the last one were not very difficult. But the second one presented some difficulties. Should I shortlist books which I already have or should I include books not in my possession? After a great deal of pondering I decided to include in the list only books in my possession, some of which I have not read yet . New books will have to claim my time and attention just on their merit or on the quality of any recommendations accompanying it.
So where should I start ? As one who still has not fully succeeded in getting rid of the feudal spirit would be sorely tempted to do when presented with such a dilemma, I decided to 'Ring for Jeeves'. 'The inimitable Jeeves' seemed to suggest that I follow the 'Code of the Woosters' ( or rather Kozhippurams)" and reserve my first ministrations to the P.G.Wodehouse Omnibus. That seemed to be a very sensible suggestion and so I said 'Right Oh Jeeves' and "Thank you Jeeves'. Can there be a more appropriate way to begin to implement your New year resolutions than with a 'Stiff Upper Lip'?
Once the opening move was decided upon, subsequent moves fell in place like the opening moves in a chess game. Wodehouse to be followed by Harper Lee, Dostoevsky, Oscar Wilde, Cornelius Ryan, Rushdie, Kafka, Camus ........ and a daily dose of Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. One could even fit in Mein Kampf somewhere in between.
So here I am. All set to Ring out Facebook and Ring in a New Year.